I can no longer be a hero in my own mind


Increasingly, I’ve begun to notice my dreams.

Throughout my life dreams have been fleeting remembrances, exploding into fragments as I stumbled into consciousness. But I remember that in those dreams, the dialogue read like a screenplay (even if the action is surreal).

Courtesy: Jack Unruh

Now, with aphasia a by-product of the stroke, I’ve started talking as though I do in real life. I have to tell people in my dreams: “I’ve had a stroke, which affects the way I speak.” (I don’t into delve into the meaning of aphasia – my dreams are not educational)

Now in my dreams, I have to tell people why I speak funny.

Which is funny. The effect of the stroke is evident even in my imagination, and I find that I can no longer be a hero in my own mind.

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2 responses to “I can no longer be a hero in my own mind

  1. Great to see you back writing Louis. And a happy thanksgiving to you and your family.

    Your pal, Guy

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